Maybe not confused now, but pissed

...Maldito seas Blasfemo, que realmente sabes cómo enseñar a tus maneras a quienes haz engañado..

The other day I finally arrived to The Hospital. This time it was more easier because I already knew where to go and I skept all that clue things. Once I arrived brother Hospitaller was making some works at the place's  defence wall, he welcomed me inside the Hospital and helped me to get my stuff.

I couldnt resist to sleep in those comfy beds (I'm deeply sorry for sleeping all the day brother, but I couldnt stayed awake then..) . Althougth brother Hospitaller laughed and said they were not 'that' comfortable, for me it was like sleeping in a cloud after all that bus journeys. Oh Lord, I crossed the entire country to get here...

But at least now I was able to rest in a decent place and clarify my thoughts about what was happening.

I also spoke with brother about what happened to him that night not so long ago, but now I think that I should not write about it myself, so I will just leave it for himself if he wants to share it with someone else. You know, personal stuff, jeje.

And oh yes! I ate a portion of Count Chocula!!! ... I was never sure if it is wrote like that..

But god, I really love that cereal!! :3 Thank you for all the help, brother.

Mainly that and speaking with brother Hospitaller made me get over all this stress. I also prayed all night for answers thought. Then I understanded that I was just trying to fool myself and dont really accept what Naomi-Tensor or however she is called did.  ....

Maybe it is already time to expose myself again. I had asked my 'family' to give me some financial support (something I rejected when I started this journey of mine) before I went to the forest,  to maybe settle up somewhere and wait for Blasphemer makes It's moves. Now, with the lack of knowing in who really to trust and the lack of information I cant do any other thing than observe Blasphemer and study how he acts ( Like most people already tried, but whatever, already runned ut of ideas).. but now I'm having some interest in the proxies, so I migth start with that...

...

Maybe proxies act as sycopaths or sick minded persons now. But still I cant hate them at all, I know it is not their choice, althought they might think it is.. So if I ever turn into a Blind againts my will, please, forgive me, and if necessary kill me. I pray to my Lord to protect me from Blasphemer influence. But harming inocents is something I actually fear for. So just do me the favor ok?

Still, I will deny killing a proxy by myself thought. Jeje.

Salve oh Christe!!